[For someone with issues bred into making fighting her purpose, staying away from it would inevitably depress her, too... Fighting that would just as well dig her deeper into instability. Damned if she does, damned if she doesn't.

Spartans, as noble as they can be, can also be incredibly self-destructive.]

I want to do that. [She has to learn from some mistakes.] I swore I would save as many lives as possible, but it's hard to stop feeling those things...

[There have to be ways to get over it.]

I try meditation a lot. Do you think that can help overcoming those feelings, ma'am?