daisy023 | REPORT 012 :: REMINISCENCE // ACCIDENTAL VIDEO

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REPORT 012 :: REMINISCENCE // ACCIDENTAL VIDEO | VOICE

[The feed is activated when the journal drops from the hand of the Spartan, revealing an apartment with only the armored figure walking by. She takes off and drops the helmet with an unusual violence, and sits in a wall while staring at the window.

For minutes, she does nothing except looking at the opening, seemingly immobile as the wind coming through it caressed her hair, as if she was as solid as the armor she wore.

She stands up, picks her helmet, and shuts the feed.]

[ENCRYPTED TO THE BLUE ROGUES AND VALVALIS]

I'll be on the mountains. Don't look for me.

((OOC: It won't be a hiatus (for now), but for a week or perhaps more, Daisy will be exploring the mountains for the time to think and be alone, to remember and ponder about her life*, and to contact Kippin. It's been nearly a week since the event, but for her? It's the last straw on the camel's back, and she needs to walk it off for a while. Even killing aliens wouldn't cheer her up for this.

Of particular note? Superman and Michael... will have somewhat triggering reactions. She doesn't hate them (quite the contrary), but she will because, again, they're part of something she has always wanted to have. ~~THAT MEANS YOU ARE FREE TO ANNOY HER! TALK TO HER! NOW! I WANT TO BREAK HER EVEN MORE!~~

*Perhaps an excuse to make an IC complete history section? It seemed a bit too cold for me when I was writing it like a report. Something on the style of the Halo: Evolutions tale The Return could be a bit more fitting for a character like her.))

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When you say it like that... you know I can't leave you alone.

That's what I need the most right now.

I'm getting sick of this place.

It's... really not as terrible as you're making it out to be, Daisy.

This shift-- [A sudden pause.] ... Everything. Between being a prisoner for those bastards, and not even being able to serve in my world, I need the time to think.

...

[She adds sadly.]

Val, The longer I spend in here, the more I feel I'm losing it.

I... I don't want you to be miserable Daisy. But I don't want you to leave either. I truly have so few close friends.

[A long pause. She knows how this is.]

So do I. [In her world, nearly no one that was not a Spartan.] But I want to do this alone. You ...

[You were a part of that life I wanted. You remind me of lost chances. You remained my best friend.]

I need the time to meditate.

((OOC: God damn you. Those words are making Daisy rethink her whole "lone pilgrimage" thing.))

[[But, Val doesn't want Daisy to become some sort of recluse. Or, worse, come to hate everything that Val's gotten her to open up to.[[

I... Daisy... I don't want you to...

[The Spartan's words turn more broken. Slowly losing the stoicism that Valvalis would know of her.]

I'll be worse if I stay, Val. I can't go on like this.

I snapped with the person that took the place of my dad in that world. What will happen if I see Michael? How will I go if they keep reminding me of things I want to forget so I don't break?

What will I do if all of that keeps happening?

Just because all these strange things keep happening, that doesn't mean you have to change from who you are...

[[And it kind of hits her...]]

Then again... I'm partly responsible for that too, aren't I? I'm here telling you not to change, but, I have made you change... Just by trying to be a friend to you...

[From her side of the comm, Daisy's voice calms, and she makes a pause that lasts a minute. Her words are no longer enraged, but sad.]

You are responsible. But you are not guilty. You have only helped me. All of you have. I don't want to lose those bonds. I will return when I'm alright.

But you all remind me of so much. I need to clear my mind. Don't deny me it. Please.

Promise you'll come back, Daisy?

I promise.

[This place depressed her, but she had too many bonds here. Even if she wanted time for herself, she knows she wouldn't survive alone. Valvalis is right on that matter.

And without any member of the UNSC, without the Spartans, and without Ralph, her loneliness would only break her even further.]

It'll take a while. But I'll be back.

...

Take care.

[[She still didn't want to let Daisy go by herself, but that's how it was going to be, wasn't it?]]

If you need something, let me know. I'll... try not to bother you and just drop it off... But... don't torture yourself just because you need some alone time.

I won't.

...

[She's going to miss you. But for the week, and perhaps a little more, she is going to need to think about her life, and what remains of it while in Luceti.]

[Adell hears this and blinks. He has a strong feeling it's got everything to do with the Shift.]

The line's fully secure, Daisy. ...Is there anything I can do to help you? You're still a Rogue, and if you need or want anything, we're here for you.

Thank you, sir.

...

[He is not a Spartan. None of the Rogues are. But she remembers old times.]

This will sound strange, sir... But I need to think. This shift opened old wounds.

[But even if Adell was kind for a Commanding Officer, a CO never wants excuses. He always wants the truth, never justifies a lack of discipline. Daisy wonders how well would he understand, but she does not blame him.]

It did for a lot of people. It's... caused a lot of people to think about their lives, both here and back home. If... you need some time to yourself to think about things, I understand that much.

But don't forget that even if we're all from different worlds, we're still all in this together.

...

Thank you, Captain.

[Sob. You are too nice, sir.]

I will report when I return.

If you give order, I'll attend to a reunion.

Understood.

...Take care of yourself out there, Daisy.

I will, sir.

...

Thank you.

[Break? No, no, Michael doesn't want that to happen, being in the same boat, though you'd never be able to tell. He's been putting this off for a while, not having any idea how to approach his "sister" ...but he can't just sit idle with her in such an obvious mood.]

So they really got to you with this last experiment, then?

[She takes a while to answer. He would hear shifting of armor.]

I wonder if they know about us.

It wouldn't surprise me. They can play god with every other aspect of our lives... so why not probe our memories for the best head-games to play with us.

Even things we should have forgot!

[These words sound angry. Her next words are lower in tone.]

I'm tired of not being in control of my fate.

[I want out.]

Things can get rough here... but sometimes, you can take something good away from even the worst of it.

[This answer manages to calm her. She had always wanted this. Know what was like to have a full life and the right to choose your own fate... And what having a family was like.

Her question now sounds somewhat peaceful.]

...

What did you take of last week?

It...

It wasn't half bad... having a family again.

[And he's only barely flipping out at himself on the inside... having a week to mull over it helped.]

[Daisy... is probably needing more. While next week she'll be better, she has still a lot to think about.]

It wasn't. [A pause.] It's losing it what hurt. [Realizing she had no past, no family, and no one from her world.] I didn't want to feel that again.

It wasn't pleasant, waking up to realize we weren't really family.

Still... it's not like either of us has gone anywhere.

True. No one has.

[As much as Daisy would want to avoid everyone, he is right. Alexei is still here. Superman is still here. Michael is still here.]

How will you take those that were family? Right now, it's... odd.

[At least it's easier for Daisy in that matter. She is oblivious to Michael flirting with women.]

I was hoping to start by getting to know them- and you, a bit better.

[After that experiment... Michael's not entirely sure he COULD flirt with Daisy.]

[Luckily for him, Daisy is not even familiar with flirting, or the possibility to be partners. Alas...]

Maybe...

[Perhaps even with who was supposed to be their dad.]

It's going to take me some time. Maybe it's too soon for me.

[Right now she's amazed she hasn't broken down in front of Michael.]

Well, I'll be glad to listen, if you ever want to talk about it.

Thank you, Michael.

...

[She didn't refer to him by his rank or last name. She berates herself for it.]

It feels too close.

[This is mentioned as if it was a bad thing. In her mind, for a Spartan, it should be.

[And he'll be over here silently congratulating you for it, so it all balances out, right?]

Understandable... still, at the end of the day, we need to watch out for each other here I think.

As always. [A sad sigh.] Even, or especially, if you don't have friends from your world.

[The last part is spoken low, thinking. It'd be up to Michael if he hears it or not. Daisy is emo.]

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[Voice] quick ? -Would Daisy have let Michael help her move back after the event?

[Voice] Reluctantly, and she would have tried to avoid him. Though she knows she won't do it forever

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